I told my friend that if I take credit for anything, it’s for this: I prayed. I prayed hard, every single day, through tears and exhaustion, through silence and sobs. I prayed for my children’s hearts, their futures, their friends, their spouses, their jobs, and all the decisions I’d never be able to control. I trusted God to step in and handle the pieces I couldn’t fix — and He did.

Now that the arrival of my first born son is approaching, I think more and more about what values matter most to me and what I will teach...

The last light of hope had been snuffed out as a forth sonogram revealed an empty womb and a bump on my left ovary.